Break Anxiety and Addiction By Examining Your Patterns | Michael Puett | Big Think

If we often ask ourselves, okay, who am I? What’s my true self? What am I gifted at? What am I bad at? Oftentimes we’ll answer that assuming this one authentic self. So I’m just the sort of person who gets angry at little things, but I’m also the sort of person who’s very good at tackling big problems. So that’s me.

And then we’ll think through, okay, what’s a good career for me? What are good relationships for me based on who I am? Now again suppose that’s all wrong. Suppose those are all simply patterns we’ve fallen into. So it may be empirically right to say right now I'm someone who gets angry at little things and good at thinking big. But that’s just because I’ve fallen into these patterns. That doesn’t mean that’s essentially me; that’s just who I’ve become.

Now if that’s right, the question you should be posing to yourself is not "who am I." The question you should pose to yourself is "what are these patterns I’m falling into?" Why do I get angry at these little things all the time? Why do I seem to be what I think is at my best when I’m tackling big problems? And you begin to look at those little things you do on a daily basis that are sort of defining how we’re responding to the world.

Why do these little things make us angry? And you begin to alter those. Why for something we think is good, thinking big, tackling big problems? Well, what is it that I think I’m good at there, and what am I doing that I think draws me out of my more negative sides, my angers and resentments, and getting angry at little things? What is it about that that I do well? And can I do more of that in other aspects of my life?

And you’re constantly trying to get a sense of what are these patterns I’ve fallen into and how do I alter them. Some of them may be good, and you may want to develop them, and this example, the thinking big. Some of them may be really bad and are probably sort of the tip of an iceberg of something else going on that we spend so much of our lives in anger and resentment and jealousy.

That’s not you; that’s a pattern and it’s alterable. So the question they would always say is what are these patterns, how do I shift them, how do I break out of them, and how do I develop better ways of interacting around me? If you take these ideas seriously—and I do—I think they’re really on to something.

Addiction is sort of the most extreme example of something we’re all falling into. So all of us are patterned creatures that just repeat these patterns endlessly. And addiction is simply an extreme form of this. What this means, therefore, is in dealing with addictions, as in dealing with any of the patterns we’re involved in as human beings, it’s a very comparable concern. It’s how do I break those patterns?

So with the extreme one of addiction, what is it that’s driving this endless repetition just over and over and over again? Oftentimes you begin with the breaks at the little things, the little things that you can deal with. Oftentimes it can be the little fears and anxieties that begin to creep in, sort of in the middle of the night. One wakes up, and then in the morning again one wakes up, and it brings back those fears, and just sort of those begin escalating over the course of the day leading one to return to the object of one’s addiction.

So that’s the place to start then. So why are those little fears setting in? Why are there anxieties? Are there little things you can begin to do to break out of those fears and anxieties? And if you begin with those little things, those are the ones that over time begin to escalate and shift your larger scale patterns.

Now that’s not to say you also don’t need someone there saying "don’t do X, don’t drink, don’t do drugs" if you’re an addict. But the reason that can be so ineffective in the long run is you’re not really breaking your pattern. You’re sort of breaking that—you’re trying to break it at too late a stage. Like going through the day with all the anxieties. Now I’ll try to not get that drink. Well, good, but you’ve got to start earlier.

You’ve got to begin with why those little anxieties begin to gnaw at you at 3:00 a.m. when you wake up. Why when the alarm goes off do they gnaw at you all the more? That’s where you begin to make the little breaks. And over time, that’s how you break these larger patterns.