yego.me
💡 Stop wasting time. Read Youtube instead of watch. Download Chrome Extension

The Isolation of Addiction | Breakthrough


2m read
·Nov 11, 2024

The similarities with all kinds of addiction is you get that first good feeling from using something, and your brain just remembers the good part. Whether there's a negative—I, oh, I didn't have any money after that, I didn't, I mis-rent or whatever—your brain really quickly forgets that.

Then it turns into just this obsession. Like, that it's really the only thing that matters. I shot up like right over there earlier; that's like where I got H—like halfway down that block. I look at it like it's a strip mine. At first, you know, I have these relationships, and they're fruitful, and I'm getting stuff out of them.

Then I will burn these bridges and strip away these relationships with people until there's nothing left. Then it's just like, screw—you know, screw it, whatever, you know, on to the next one. All you want to do is the drug thing. I can't stress enough it's the obsession; that's all there. That's all that matters, man. It's the only thing that makes any sense.

Then life is still happening to you as this is going on. You're not really consciously thinking about, well, you know, I don't—I don't make this phone call. I'm not going to call him tomorrow, and then you're not going to talk to them for six months, and that—that's going to change how that person feels about you. You're not worried about that, and you expect the next time you talk to someone, it's just to be like you talked to them yesterday.

With a lot of people, it's not like that, and I think that's a problem with getting clean too.

"Hi, good afternoon. I have an appointment to see Dr. Camlet."

Okay, you get clean, and you're like, oh, I'm just going to get detoxed, and things going to be fine. But you get out, and everything builds up—all the real-life stuff—because you just haven't been dealing with it.

The worst thing is really the shame in it all. I mean, you feel shameful that you've screwed so many people over. You feel shameful that your parents don't want to talk to you anymore, really, and that a lot of people resent you, and you can feel it. And it hurts. [Music]

More Articles

View All
Chaos: The Science of the Butterfly Effect
Part of this video is sponsored by LastPass. More about LastPass at the end of the show. The butterfly effect is the idea that the tiny causes, like a flap of a butterfly’s wings in Brazil, can have huge effects, like setting off a tornado in Texas. Now …
Reprogramming Perception - Tech+Art | Genius: Picasso
I like to challenge my audience with sensory experiences that can almost feel threatening. I use hair, spit, semen, blood. Why do you find it disgusting? Why is that normal? Why are things so sanitized? I think, as an artist, I’m really interested in all …
Priceless Ancient Treasures Leave Greece for First Time | National Geographic
[Music] Some of the objects are so valuable that it’s like what we call hand carry, and that’s basically the courier is handcuffed to the briefcase and escorted through security. The golden wreath of Meup, it’s like a crown, would have gone on her head a…
Inside the Illegal Ape Trade | Trafficked: Underworlds with Mariana van Zeller
I’m Mariana Vanel, as a journalist covering the underworld. I’ve seen almost everything that can be trafficked, but apes was a really sad and difficult story to report on. Wildlife trafficking is the fourth most lucrative crime in the world; we are talkin…
Visit Her at Your Peril | Barkskins
[birds chirping] You are Mari, the housekeeper. He’s told me of you. [thud] Some creatures must go back to go wild, it seems. Monsieur Trepagny smashes them with his stick at night, and they know to stay away from our bed. He does have dominion over all. …
Impostor Syndrome: What Is Your Worth?
Hi there. We’ve been looking for you. Yes, you. We know everything about you: how you’ve pretended to know things you have no idea about, how you’ve slept through years of your education, how you’ve received awards that you never deserved, and how you’ve …