Real reason why I don't laugh

Hi guys, before starting the video, I want to do a quick disclaimer about this video. This video is not for entertainment purposes, or this video would not add any value to your life. So if you're not super curious about why I don't love, maybe don't watch this video. Feel free to skip it. Use your time wisely. This is not a type of content that I normally do, but I was getting this comment over and over and over again, so I wanted to clear out. Thanks! So let's get started.

Hi guys, it's me, Julie. Today I'm back with another video. So today, I'm going to be talking about why I don't love, and I'm also gonna be addressing the other things as well. So let's start with the reason why I don't love. Firstly, I do love dough. The thing that I don't understand is that whenever I'm talking about studying, language, or time management, or, you know, other like kind of serious stuff, why would I love? There's nothing funny to laugh about. Why would you love when you're talking about concentration or when you're talking about like study tips? Would you love? I don't know if it's normal to love when talking about serious topics. Well, there is nothing fun, so I don't love. That's the reason.

When I'm with my family, or when I'm with my friends, or like when I'm with other people, I laugh quite a lot. I'm also pretty known for my very loved laughter. [Laughter] I used to like laugh during the middle of the class when I was in high school with one of my best friends, Tuana. We used to laugh in the middle of the class, and the teacher would be like, "What? What is funny?" I actually laugh quite a lot with my loud ones, you know? I'm known for that. And here I am on YouTube, with people commenting all the time, "You're not laughing!" If there is nothing to laugh about, I wouldn't love. I don't really love when people do fake love. I just don't love it. I just wanna show the emotions that I'm feeling, and I show it, you know?

I kind of like really thought about this—why people think that I don't love. I analyzed it and I found three reasons. So firstly, the first reason is that I don't do really facial expressions, you know? When I'm talking, I think it's a little bit weird because when you look at like two Turkish people and Japanese people, they both do quite a lot of mimics and gestures. My mother, especially, who is Japanese, does a lot of mimics. Actually, she is all the time like, you know, doing some facial expressions. But my father is like pretty poker-faced, so I think I'm like my father. I think that can be the reason. But let me ask this: would you die from laughter when you're talking about language learning tips?

Okay, so let me do an example. The way that I learned English is from YouTube. I don’t know, that’s so weird, right? That’s kind of like really fake, and I don’t love that. And the second reason is that I’m trying to explain things in my foreign language. I always like constantly try to make sure that I’m saying things that I want to say, because like when it comes to language learning tips or productivity, there are like a lot of things to say. Most of the time, I write a script about it so that I can have a clear vision about what I’m gonna say. So I’m like trying to make sure that I say everything, so it kind of like makes me a more serious person, I think.

And the third one: I’m not 100% comfortable on YouTube. My channel grew, like, a lot of people are watching me, and I’m trying to get used to this thing. I think I’m pretty comfortable in front of the camera, but still, I don’t feel like I’m talking to my friend or I’m talking to someone that I love, you know? There’s like a camera sitting on me, and I’m just like looking at the lens of the camera. So I think that can be the reason. I’m kind of like getting more comfortable with my audience and with the whole YouTube thing, and I'm also like kind of trying to show my personality as well. I think these can be the three reasons.

But I do love throughout my videos, like by myself as well, when I say something wrong or—but like I hit my arms quite a lot and I laugh about a bit, but I look just like cut these parts because, and also, language really changed my personality as well. I think I'm like much more friendly in Turkish, and I think I’m much more funny in Japanese. I think in German, I’m kind of like shy. I don’t know why. But in English, I think I look like a more cool person, like a more cold person. I personally don't know when YouTubers put like not necessary things about the video, so when I'm like searching for a study tip, I just want to hear the tips from that person—not like him talking about some random or him laughing without a reason or something.

But if you guys don’t love the way that I talk, like me not doing any mimics or me not really laughing throughout the videos, I can like add bloopers to the end of my video where I’m like more natural and where I show my personality more. I can do that if you guys hate the way I talk. But I believe everybody is different. I don’t understand people who have like positive energy, who have energy, and who are like really laughing all the time, are very popular, because it makes you happy, right? But this is the way I talk, and this is, this is the way I talk—not doing mimics or something.

I mean, I don’t have any problems with my talking, or I don’t hate it or something, you know? Everybody is different in their own way, and I think that’s a beautiful thing. But I do understand when it comes to social media, a lot of people would follow people who are more energetic. I do understand that. I mean, should I love during the videos when I talk about productivity? Do people love out of it? When I look at the other YouTubers that I watch, like Aaliyah Doll or Matt D'Avella or Euro, they don't—they're not like, "Today I'm spilling about the productivity tips" or something, you know?

I think people who laugh a lot in their videos are like kind of more entertainment YouTubers in my opinion. I’m like really, really confused. Should I laugh? Should I love? Should I fake it? What I like tell to my friends—they’re pretty surprised because I laugh all the time with them. My teeth got so yellow that because of the coffee that I drink daily. Last year, when I was preparing for the university entrance exam, I was drinking about 500 milliliters to one liter of coffee in order to survive. So that wasn’t healthy, obviously. So my teeth got so yellow, and I’m so, ah! And I really want to do teeth whitening. I’m currently talking with my brother about that. I really do want to do that because it’s kind of like makes me really insecure, and yeah, I really want to whiten my teeth. I think it looks beautiful, like white teeth. I just love it so much. I don't understand why my brother has like the whitest teeth even though he's drinking coffee as well.

[Music] That was me rambling about why I don’t love—which I love. Should I fake love? That would be awful, though. I’m really bad about that. But yeah, I want to be real when I film YouTube videos. I don’t want to lie or I don’t want to show emotion that I’m not feeling. I don’t know. I don’t know anymore. Yeah, bye for now.

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