I was wrong.

I was wrong. I never believed in accountability, and I thought it's stupid because for me, if you want to truly achieve something, you won't need anyone else. All you need to do is focus on your goals solely, disappear from the crowd, put a distance between old people who don't agree with you. You know, like live like a monk, and I did it for the last 3 years. I only focused on my goals and nothing else.

During those times, I think I didn't have much fun. Actually, my dad got scammed by my uncle 2 years ago, and we almost became homeless. All of my family's savings vanished, and we didn't have any way out. But luckily, at that time, because I already built my YouTube channel to a couple hundred thousand subscribers, I was making my own money. If you're familiar with my story, you probably know what my family went through, and I went through basically.

Two years ago, when my uncle scammed us, that was a lost toll for my family. I've never seen my parents that desperate, and I still cannot forget how they were looking at the wall, blank. I blamed myself actually a lot because I thought if I would have a bigger channel, if I would have monetized more effectively, and if I would be a more interesting creator, and if I would, you know, had more people watching me, following me, I could easily repair the damage that my uncle caused. If I was so successful, I could have paid hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt in cash. But I couldn't because I wasn't that successful, and in my mind, I thought because of me, my family got hurt.

I promised myself to get my family out of this loop and give them the life they deserve because my family struggled a lot. They fought their whole life for my brother and I just to give us a good life, right? I decided to go all in on my channel. All I was thinking was to grow my YouTube channel, get sponsorships, make as much money as I can, so that I can protect my family.

I disappeared from every social circle I was in, and I wasn't checking my phone, so it was almost impossible to reach out to me because I isolated myself so much. I literally forgot how to communicate with humans. By doing so, I got everything I wanted. I made a lot of money, I grew my channel, I got in shape, I got into one of the most prestigious schools in Italy, Sapienza, and I became super productive.

But at what cost? I was freaking miserable every day. I was so lonely, and even though going into monk mode allowed me to get the results fast, I didn't enjoy it. For the last 7 years, I've been struggling with depression, and that got worse. I didn't know what to do. I left my YouTube channel for a long time, and that was the reason I was super inconsistent because I lost my peace. I literally lost my mind during that time.

But now looking back, I was so wrong. Yes, you don't need accountability, you don't need people to support you to achieve your goals. I think you can still do everything alone, right, to a certain extent. I still believe that, but it's not fun. It's freaking lonely. They say it's lonely at the top, but if you're lonely at the top, are you even at the top?

It's 4th of April today, and it's my birthday, and I'm 23 now. Every single year when I hit my birthday, I feel super proud of myself that I survived another year. I didn't K myself, right? I also get depressed at the fact that there are so many years, probably, I need to live. That's because I built a life that was miserable. It's not normal to think that way.

I conditioned myself to think that this is what people go through if they achieve their life. No, but it's not. I want to change that, and you know, there's so many people, especially in the self-improvement community, glamorizing this, and I think it only causes mental issues, to be honest. They also say mental issues don't exist. Okay, it's kind of like denying cancer. Your perception of reality doesn't change the truth, right? You can believe everything you want. I believe in freedom of speech; you can say anything you want, but it doesn't mean that it's true.

When those voices get so loud, you start to believe that thing too because I believed in it. Even though I'm not really a person that follows red pill content, I'm into self-improvement. I want to improve myself every single day. I want to achieve a lot of goals. I have so many things I want to achieve, and I work hard for them. But it got to a point where I stopped enjoying it. If I'm not enjoying it, there is no point.

I want to change this. I want to change this mindset of telling you that you shouldn't enjoy it, but it's fine because you reach your goals or something, you know, something that I also used to believe. But I will change that, not only for myself but also for you because if you're watching this video, I know you also have big dreams. So do I.

It's so freaking hard to get in shape, make money online, retire your parents, be social, manage your ADHD if you have it like me, be productive while being social, and enjoy your life and not burn out. I know how hard it is to be consistent and enjoy the process because I've been through that, and I know you're struggling too. But I made a promise to myself that the next 90 days are going to be different because I will be no longer alone, so do you.

I'm building something that I need to achieve my goals and not lose my mind. You know, that can help anyone who has goals and dreams to make them come true, and it's almost done. Don't worry; it's not going to be like thousands of dollars or even hundreds of dollars. It's not going to be like that; it's going to be quite accessible because I'm not trying to rip you off to sell an expensive course like, "Oh, transform your life" or something.

No, not that way. You know, I just want to build a safe place where you and I won't feel alone, get encouraged, get motivated, feel connected, and go over the problems we have in our lives together. Now, I want to create a community where we're going to push each other, cheer each other on, and pick each other up when we struggle.

Because I don't want to cry no more lonely, and I don't want you to do the same thing too. We're going to take on our goals together and make the whole damn journey a hell of a lot more fun because the journey is so freaking long. I will announce it soon, soon, and I promise I won't disappoint you, and I'm sure you're going to find it valuable.

So if you want to get notified when I announce it, drop your email to my waiting list so that I can reach you out. Don't worry; I'm not going to spam you with marketing emails or something. I'm not doing it, really. And we got this! Since it's my birthday, I would appreciate it if you wish me a good birthday so that we can raise the engagement, and we can reach out to more friends and create a bigger movement. See you soon! I love you.