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Hi guys, it's me, Judy. Today we're gonna have a very, very intense studying session because I've been procrastinating from studying for over a month, and I have my exams in four days. We only have four days, and I have to cover more than 50 PowerPoint slides. I don't know how the heck I'm going to absorb this information. The reason why I was procrastinating for a month is that I was trying to move out. I was trying to find an apartment, and I was staying at hotels. You know, I was trying to get used to my school, and it took a lot of time. But yeah, we have only four days until my exam. I really, really, really have to cram for my exams. I know it's not a good thing to cram for your exams, but I'm trying to keep it real with you guys.

I have my huge ass monitor; this is a 35-inch monitor. I used to use this, oops, a 27-inch one. But like, for this upcoming exam season, I decided to upgrade my desk setup. I actually wanted to get a 46-inch which Ali Abdul uses, but then I looked at the prices and I said it's a little bit early for you to buy that. So I decided to firstly buy this. Maybe over a year or something, I might buy the 46-inch, but this is good. This is really good.

I have a lot of things to study and I'm currently looking at my Notion for while studying. I'm going to use my IKEA Unix M80 keyboard. Look at this beauty; this is like a cat-designed keyboard which they sent me. They also sent me like in a blue and also like a yellowish-orange color, but I love this pink one the most. I don't really know where to start, and I also forgot my mic in my place, so maybe the quality of this video is not really good. Sorry for that.

I think I'll start with the biostatistics, and then I might do a little bit of public health. Let's start with the biostatistics. But I really don't like biostatistics at all. Is there anyone else in Turkish med school that understands biostatistics? Because whoever I talked to said that I don't understand biostatistics. Biostatistics and me too, what is that? I don't like it, but I really have to do it. By the way, I alternate between these two keyboards; I use IQ Unix M80 or this one, IQ Nx F96.

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I studied for about an hour, or maybe about an hour and a half, biostatistics, but I couldn't understand a word. I just don't understand it. I messaged one of my friends, and he sent me like two videos of explanation in Turkish. He said, "Watch this video; this is easy, you can understand it and stuff." So I'm gonna watch those. But from 2 PM to 4 PM, I'm gonna meet with one of my half-Japanese, Turkish-mixed friends, so I think I'm gonna wear a little bit of makeup because I feel like I need a little bit of more energy. So I'm just gonna do a little bit of makeup while listening to some music using these Sony WH-1000XM2 headphones.

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Okay, so I finished my makeup. Nothing special, just like a very simple normal makeup that I most of the time wear.

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So it's been a while and it's currently 9 PM, exactly like exact, and I have tons of studying that I have to do, which means I'm actually [ __ ] up. But I have my iced coffee, and yeah, I have the willpower right now to study and smash this session because I literally only have four days and I still couldn't finish like any of my slides. So I really, really, really need to cram. I know this is not a really good example, to be honest, but when it comes to my channel these days, I've been really struggling because I know that I have to be a role model to people who watch this channel.

I know that the things that I say, the things that I do, can impact other people's lives in some sort of way. You can influence people because you have a platform. So I really need to be careful about what I say and what I do. But at the same time, I want to keep things real between us because even though I don't really know you guys and you don't really know me, I feel like some sort of a connection between, you know, us. And I want to keep things real. I don't want to lie or act like everything is okay and fine and I'm perfect and stuff because, actually, I have struggles and I'm struggling right now and I want to like show that.

But at the same time, me cramming before an exam is not a really good example of a student, you know? Maybe I'm overthinking, but at the same time, I want to show how I improved myself. Because I know that my life is completely messed up right now, but I know that I can fix those problems. I want to show the whole journey to you guys because, as you can see, I only have four days until my exams, and they're really important exams, but I'm acting like I don't have an exam. Why? Literally, why am I doing this? I want to show how I go back to being productive and having a healthy lifestyle, and I want to show the journey throughout that. Uni is really different than high school and I'm trying to figure out my life.

So please, please be nice to me. I'll be nice to you. Please, let's support us and let's be better versions of ourselves.

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Oh, I'll get better at fashion once I figure out my life. Okay.

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Oh, I'll probably make myself another cup of coffee. Maybe I'll go to the toilet and I might respond to some messages that I got from my friends.

I am back. I think the problem with the Pomodoro method is that you promise yourself that you're going to only take like a 10-minute break, but my break ended up being about an hour. I think I'm really gonna like try the Nussers setting method or study block method because my concentration lasts for a very long period of time because I trained it quite a lot. But whenever I just like get out of that studying zone, it takes a little bit of time to get back in.

Well, this is my, I don't know, third-fourth cup of coffee. You shouldn't drink this much caffeine. I'm not saying that you should; I'm just showing that I do drink. Ah, it's so good. By the way, it's currently like 10:58 PM. My non-existing sleep schedule is really messed up right now, but I have enough self-confidence to tell you guys that I'm gonna fix my life in two weeks. Everything's gonna be fine.

Okay, so I arranged my schedule and made like future plans, and it's now 12:21. How is it even possible?

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I'm currently reading an article about behavioral sciences, and literally it says like causes of stress among students. One of the top reasons that causes stress among students is time management. It is so true. Like academics, finances, relationships, career, and time management actually currently causes stress on youth. Whether secondary or tertiary, balancing academics, extra activities, and home life can be difficult. Plus, a part-time job, and the challenge increases.

Exactly.

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I feel like in school, they really have to teach us how to cope with stress because academics are really stressful, and most of the students don't know how to manage their time and how to cope with stress. And even though we really have to learn about those things, we learn about really unnecessary stuff, in my opinion, even in med school. I know that most of the things that I currently learn, I'm not gonna use it as a doctor. Maybe as a researcher, yes, but as a doctor, no. And if I want to become a researcher, I can learn it in the future.

I feel like rather than bombarding ourselves with unnecessary information, we need to learn more about how to take care of ourselves, about our mental health, about our physical health. But they don't teach us those things.

Currently, you see me at 11:28 trying to study and having a mental breakdown. Actually, they actually need to teach us.

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So it's currently 2 AM, and I read like a bunch of research, and I had to read an article that our professor sent to us, and it's over 60 pages. Ah, I've died. I've been literally reading about domestic violence for an hour and a half at least. It's kind of entertaining. I mean, I haven't stressed over it; I'm dying.

I'm going to do my skincare, change my clothes, and sleep, and we're going to continue tomorrow. I can't even speak.

Anyways, good night.

Hi guys, good morning. Guys, hi guys! It's actually not morning; it's currently 1 PM. I woke up, had my breakfast, showered, as you can probably tell. Probably my mom is gonna kill me because the kitchen is a little bit messy. And every single time when I film, the kitchen messiness, she just watches my videos and I'm like, "You know what is this?"

I'm getting ready for a yell. But anyways, I'm gonna make myself a coffee and drink it, and today I probably have to study like for 12 hours or something in order to cover all the materials that we have done in the uni. I was looking for an apartment for a whole month, and I was staying at a hotel. I couldn't realize that I'm actually a uni student, so I was just chilling, going outside, eating outside, having fun with my friends. And now, voila! It's exam season!

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Here I am. I'm gonna cram for this exam for the next exam. I'm gonna get those good grades.

Okay, so for today, for this time, please forgive me because I feel like I have a, because I kind of feel like some sort of pressure. I feel like I have to be a good role model, but at the same time, I want to keep things realistic. There is like a huge pressure that I put on myself, and it's kind of really affecting me these days.

Anyways, but yeah, from the second exam, I'm gonna be the productive bad [ __ ]. Okay, so wait until that time.

So here is my coffee. We got this like Starbucks mug from Singapore. I love Singapore, love laksa. As you can probably tell, I gained four kilos. But I don't really care. Like, I used to feel like it’s the end of the world when I gain weight because, you know, in Japan, we have pretty strict beauty standards for women to be really, really, really thin. So I think that was just influencing me.

But now, in Turkey, you know, people don't really care that much, I guess. They say what is that? No, no, no, no, that's so wrong. Wait, wait. Yeah, I'm gonna just put a translation here.

Yeah, what the hell is it? Anyways, so I like the curves that I, you know, gained, but tummy. I feel like I love the curves, but I don't really like, you know, my tummy to just, like, sit there. But I started to like lower my body. I had a lot of problems with body dysmorphia, but these days I'm starting to love my body. It doesn't mean that I'm not gonna change my own healthy lifestyle because I've been eating out every single day for a month, and now I'm broke and also gained fat.

You know, like a very unhealthy weight. If it was like a healthy way, healthy happy fat gain, I would like love that. But, you know, I feel like I need to change my lifestyle a little bit, which we'll do in the upcoming weeks. But anyway, so today we just really need to smash for this exam.

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So I just like went for taking a nap around like 3 PM, but now it’s 9 PM. I don’t know how six hours passed, but I am back with a stronger and healthier mindset towards studying. I contacted my classmates and they told me the exact same thing: time is passing really fast, and I don't know what I do. And I couldn't cover the materials that I have to do.

Oh my god, this rhymes.

Anyways, I don't know why the heck I'm happy, but I was really slouchy and tired the whole day and in a couple of days, and I understood the reason. I got my period just right now and I feel like that was the reason behind my tiredness and, you know, slouchiness.

I'm gonna make a video about unfair advantages, but like even gender, I think is an unfair advantage because as a woman you have your, like, period. And according to your period, your moods and like the physical and mental things really change. And I feel like we as women struggle with it quite a lot. Like, my periods are always really, really bad. My tummy hurts, and sometimes I just like faint.

I have iron deficiency, you know, I just cannot really leave from my bed. Unfair advantage is a very, very interesting topic in my opinion. I'm gonna make a video about that. So stay tuned.

Why don't we have another system that is not painful? Like, why do we need to create some sort of a system that is painful? I think we could create it in a better way. I feel like I'm gonna offend a lot of people by saying this, so I'm just gonna shut my mouth up and actually start studying. I wonder if other animals have period cycles and if they're painful.

I don't know if it happens to you guys, but whenever I'm studying, random [ __ ] questions come to my mind. I'm just like really curious about it. Like, do tigers have a period? And then I start to search about it, and then I learn a bunch of new things about it. But I find it stunning! I shouldn't do that.

Now I'm back. I'm back studying. Really studying!

Oh my god, karma paused the video. But I shouldn't watch that.

Yeah, you know I...

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Somebody give me notes.

Oh my god, I'm so happy!

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I don't know what life about, I don't know what got me down.

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She broke your heart.

Okay, so it's currently 7:30 PM. I talked with a couple of sponsorships, responded to some mails, and I also scheduled my whole YouTube stuff. Whenever I give myself some freedom, I feel like I start to procrastinate and do some random stuff because I don't know what to do next. And I fill up those blanks with the most irrelevant things.

So, in order to fix that, we're gonna schedule a little bit while using Google Calendar. I probably had to study two hours every single day, multiply by 30, 60 hours, and I only have three days. Not good.

Sometimes we're never concerned when they last.

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Good morning, guys. It's currently 9:54. I was actually planning to wake up at 5.

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I've been procrastinating for like three hours or something. I don't want to study. I never wanted to study. Like, I don't like studying, but I do it anyways because I need to do it. Like, people comment like, "You're not motivated to study med school?" I mean, do you like every single second of your university life? I love med school, but I don't like to study for exams, you know? My head's so messed up, but I can't fault them.

No fear, guys. I sit right up on these bands, and I'm all used away.

I'm finally back! I just got rid of my excess energy, and now I'm ready to study. And talk! Today, I'm going to start with a 90-minute study session. Let's go!

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Alright, so I finished my first 90-minute study session. Then I had a dinner/lunch/snacks session. I don't know. I chilled in bed, read mangas, watched a couple of my videos, watched other creators' videos to see what I can improve.

You know, I always like to analyze my videos. If my video is performing good, why is it performing better than the other videos? What are the editing tactics? What are the things that I said? What are the topics that I said? How I set those things? How I edited those videos that resulted in a good watch time? Retention and all that stuff. So I was just analyzing my own videos, and now I am back and I'm gonna do another 90-minute study session.

I'm not gonna cram for the upcoming exams. I'm gonna study every single day, two to three hours every single day, little by little so that I don't need to cram anymore. I am promising to myself right now in front of you guys so that I don't make this mistake anymore.

Come on, Judy!

Alright, so I studied for about four hours while like procrastinating, taking a break, eating something, laying on my bed, and listening to music, coming back, just sitting, and just like, you know, repeating these cycles. It's currently 11 PM. From 12, I have an online course called "Building a Second Brain," and I'm going to attend those Zoom lectures.

So I have a little bit of time until then. "Building a Second Brain" is basically some sort of a, you know, productivity online course that I really wanted to attend. I might eat something or I might like talk with one of my friends.

Yeah, my friend messaged me, so I guess we're gonna have a phone call and chat a little bit.

I was down bad; now the money's coming to me so fast. Left the whole shield, big dub. Straightforward with it, I don't go back. Everybody living better. I still remember times when I'm broke down, hiding on this come-up.

I gotta get a bag for the time now, but I got nobody to lean on. Gotta go hard in a cold world. Ever since you left, I don't know what's next. I found some closer. I keep a knife in my chest just to cut holes off; I don't know...

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Today is the last day. Let me open my countdown app. It says 19 hours and nine minutes later, I'm sitting in the exam hall and writing my exam. Yesterday, I studied for about five and a half hours. Only five and a half hours, can you imagine that? You might think like, "Oh my god, five and a half hours is actually a lot." But my other friends in med school, except like my really close friends, like my classmates, study like eight hours, and they also study really regularly. I guess they're like straight A+ students, which I will be in the future.

Since I'm gonna rewatch this video, I'm telling you, Judy: remember the struggle that you had during your first exam preparation season and study regularly every single day so that you don't need to cram anymore. By the way, I ordered a new microphone, which is the Shure SM7B, which is a very popular podcast microphone that I'm going to use in my videos. Exciting things are coming!

Me releasing a podcast with two of my friends. Who knows? Really popular, really sexy! And then, the thing that amazed me is that the price difference between Turkey and Japan was not that huge. Normally, when it comes to technology goods, Turkey has very high prices, and most of the time I buy my technological things from Japan. I got my iPad, MacBook, and you know, all of my Apple products from Japan and also like from my cameras and stuff. But when it comes to this microphone, the price difference is not huge at all. Only like 3000 yen, around like 30-ish, so I got it from Turkey because there is always like a risk of buying from, you know, other countries and then bringing them to your country.

Coming to me so fast, let the whole shield beat up, straight forward with it, I don't go back. Everybody living better. I still remember times when I'm broke down, hiding on...

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Ever since you left, I don't know what's next. I ain't found closure. I keep a knife in my chest just to cut holes off; I don't know...

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I feel like myself, and I’ll turn that [ __ ] because it really don't matter. I got my mind on my mind, paranoid, they all look at me funny. Stressed out, so my lips stay muddy down. You won't take nothing from me. I don't need nobody to love me.

Okay, so I finished my exam, and now I'm heading to a cafe to edit this video and publish this today. I feel like this one was probably one of the worst exams that I ever experienced in my life. I promised you guys that I'm gonna study better next time. I want to cry! Just kidding; I actually don't care that much because we have like other exams that I can probably do better and use this video as motivation for my further studies, I guess. I'm probably getting 43, 43 to 47, maybe a little lower.

So yeah, I’ll edit this video, and this was it for today's video. Somebody, somebody kill me. Just kidding; don't kill me, but...

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Left, I don't know what's this time. Found closure; I keep a knife in my chest just to cut holes off. I don't know...